For several months now; & curiously it only started a few months ago,
i have been experiencing a very strong & compelling sensation that i am ‘missing’ something whenever i leave my apartment. This Sensation doesn’t usually start until i am at The bottom of The Steps or about a block from The Building.
This Sensation however is not at all mysterious.
i know exactly what is missing.
It is my Wrist Watch.
The Oddest part is though, i have not worn my Wrist Watch for About 3 years now.
Partly because i now have my iPod that i take everywhere with me, & partly because i stopped wearing it after i broke that wrist, & it didn’t ‘fit’ right, even after it stopped hurting & most The Strength returned to that hand.
But The Sensation is very distinct that that Wrist is ‘Bare’ & ‘Empty’ & The arm feels too light ( ! )
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Another Sensation or Compulsion that i’ve had for a much longer time is that very often when i am holding something, usually something expensive, i will have a compulsive ‘Desire’ to throw it. This usually manifests as a sudden urge that appears & then subsides, without my having thrown anything ( yet ).
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A Third Sensation is that whenever i am crossing a street or having just done some benign thing that has not expressed itself as being in The Least Dangerous or put myself in any peril; i will suddenly become ‘Aware’ that another version of me, in another universe, was just then in a terrible accident as a result of things having just occurred in ‘their’ universe, slightly differently than they did here in this universe.
( ??? )