A Kind of ESP

Sunday, September 21, 2014 3:33:08 AM

A Kind of ESP

 

My Apple Dictionary occasionally provides An Inset Box that Compares a Given Word with Its Opposite or Tangential Distinction, Along with all ( or most ) of their Intermediate forms; Such as here; where Attractive forms a Continuum with Repellant.

 

attract

delightful

lure

entice

seduce

captivate

bewitch

spellbind

beguile

enthrall

mesmerize

hypnotize

enchant

entrance

tempt

tantalize

titillate

dazzle

charm

woo

fascinate

rivet

excite

turn on

tickle someone's fancy

win over

engage

interest

catch someone's attention

catch someone off guard

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surprise

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amaze

astonish

stun

shock

startle

disquiet

perturb

unnerve

dismay

disturb

put off

offend

displease

turn off

give someone the creeps

make shudder

make someone's skin crawl

disgust

appall

horrify

gross out

make someone's gorge rise

make someone feel sick

turn one's stomach

sicken

nauseate

revolt

repulsive

repugnant

vile

foul

odious

horrid

icky

noisome

dreadful

obnoxious

loathsome

repel

 

i was looking up Attractive or Attractant to find A Word & It’s Opposite to Describe or Designate The Two Polar Forms of A Kind of ESP that i believe most clearly Describes my Particular Variety of A Personality Disorder.

 

i think i would like to use :

‘Spell Bound’ or ‘Bewitched’ to Describe The Attractant Force

& ‘Repellant’ to Describe The Odious Repulsive Influence.

 

They simply work like this;

Most easily understand with examples perhaps.

You undoubtedly know people from school or work whom you find Attractant ( Not Attractive, although they may be ) & likewise, others that are Repellant.

The Curious Bit here is that of these Two Sets of Opposites, All Other Attributes that they may share, are 100% Equivalent.

That is ;

Amoung both Attractant & Repellant Groups; There are those that are Physically Attractive, Butt Ugly, Kind & Sweet or Disagreeable & Obnoxious.

What is it about The Attractants that Bewitch you into liking them?

What is it about The Repellants that you find so Odious?

 

That is where The ESP comes in.

It is Not Merely that The Bewitching Specimens smell nice or have enchanting harmonious voices,

Or that The Noisome Swatches have appalling fashion sense—

Because whatever is so Beguiling in One,

& Unpalatable in The Other

Extends to Everything about or Connected to them.

 

In my own case; of which i am of The Repellant Variety;

i have found it ‘Fascinating’ to observe that people often react with Genuinely Hysterical Revulsion after viewing some of my most benign & innocuous drawings.

This sort of thing leaves ( me ) confused & bewildered. This same sort of reaction occurs after having an unexceptional conversation with someone, or observing their behaviour after reading one of my blog posts or viewing an objective photograph that i’ve taken.

In The Case of an UnAltered Photograph, Whatever Mysterious Attribute i possess that is so Disquieting, It is transferred to this empirical artifact ( ! ) ?

 

The Anti-Thesis of this; Which you may be more familiar with;

Is found in any number of ‘Friends’ or ‘Acquaintances’ which you have, that are demonstrably offensive in regard to physical appearance, irritating personality, nettlesome social skills, vexing body odor, tiresome fashion awareness or aggravating conversational faux pas’.

Why do you put up with people?

Why do you seek them out?

Why do you enjoy their company?

 

You may yourself or know of an Attractive Man, Boy, Woman or Young Lady that has a Steadfast & Romantic Relationship with A Remarkably ( Objectively ) Loathsome Companion. Does this Strike you as ‘Odd’ ?

Or— Do you ‘Rationalize’ this Affinity with some ‘Indefensible’ Justification ?

 

There is a very curious ‘observation’ that may be made when someone encounters The Breaking of a Taboo, In which The Viewer would be completely UnAble to Explain or Clarify what it was that was ‘Wrong’ with The Taboo Breaking Behaviour; But they will invariably react Emotionally with a Genuinely Horrified ‘Ugh! That’s Disgusting!’

 

The Same effect occurs in An Opposite Sense when you perceive A Socially Fallacious Relationship of The Sort Described Above; Where an Attractive, Kindhearted & Benevolent Woman is Romantically Involved with a Oafish Brute. You’re Logical Mind is unable to Comprehend what The Mechanical Cohesive Operations are that are holding this Union Together, But your Well Enculturated Social Temperament readily accepts it.

 

You may flippantly respond to an enquiry concerning this relationship with the tattered adage; ‘Opposites Attract’.

 

But what i’m suggesting is something Deeper.

There is ( The Best Explanation that fits The Data ) A PushMe-PullMe Form of ESP that is most readily identified in The PullMe Category as ‘Charisma’ & The PushMe Family as ‘Revulsion’.

 

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i have a diagnosed character disposition known as ’A Schizoid Personality Disorder’.

This may or may Not be Related to ‘Asperger’s’, which Symptomatically, is nearly identical.

The Nut of this Impairment is what i had long ago diagnosed on my own; As my Inability to ‘Feel Lonely’. i can easily go days, weeks or months without talking to anyone, or having any desire to talk with anyone. But this does Not mean that i have a Phobia ( of which i have many others ) of Talking with People, as i can freely chat with anyone on any topic for prolonged periods— with The Small Caveat that under a Variety of Circumstances, i do become increasingly anxious after about 5_minutes. But in other circumstances; such as when all parties are engaged in some activity, i can sustain a ‘Social-Affability’ for a much longer period.

 

Most people that i encounter for a short period of time can discern no such Social Affliction with me, & some, particularly members of my family, are certain that no such Infirmity Exists;

But.

 

This is Where The ESP Force of BeWitchment/Repellant comes in.

 

After a period time, in which i may be described as ‘Friendly’, ‘Genial’, ‘Easygoing’, or ‘Pleasant’— These people will actively choose to avoid me.

Am i avoiding them ?

Possibly. As i will often find that i dread visiting someone, or even calling them on The Phone, ( which is a principle component of my Socially Dysfunctional Condition ), i usually do Not Shun people which approach me.

And as i have mentioned already; i believe that this ESP Force extends beyound personal contact. i may be expressing a classic symptom of ‘Paranoid Schizophrenia’, in which i attribute causality to observations, where none exists;

Such as my leisurely pastime of diagraming The Purposeful Structure in photographs of clouds—

i believe that i can shut down a newsgroup conversation or thread on flickr by adding a comment to either.

One of The Strongest Splinters of Evidence for this Effect is my Dismay at The Complete Absence of Commentary, Criticism, Rejoinder or Backlash in response to some of my most Inventive & Revolutionary Creations posted to my Blog or Images on Flickr.

 

It seems to me that these Articles possess some additional Attribute that causes anyone viewing them to be Repelled at a Subliminal or Visceral Level of their Exposure to them.

 

Am i The Crazy One,

Or is there in fact A Kind of Sensory Experience which satisfies The Observations Noted or Suggested here. ( ? )

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Safe Haven

Monday, August 25, 2014 4:21:52 AM

Safe Haven

One of The Many Things that greatly irritates me about Western Civilization is that Apple Computer Shuns anyone that brings in an Old ( Very Old ) Apple Computer, ( Sometimes Not so old at all ! ) & they ( Apple ) refuses to Service it.

That’s just Wrong.

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So wouldn’t it be fun to open a Computer Service Shoppe across The Street or down The Block from Every Apple Store in America & Abroad that services Not only older Apple Computers, But any old Computer, Specializing as it were in Very Old Computers, Such as Old Commodores, Atari 400s, Timex 1000s & so on.

The Theory would be; You’d bring these insanely old Apple IIs in & they’d be ‘Refurbished’ to a completely functional condition, & they’d be much better than they were originally. They would look essentially The Same, & The Customer would have The Option of Restoring The ‘Look & Feel’ of The Original Interface, Providing a more ‘Modern’ or ‘Contemporary’ Interface, or Creating an Entirely New User GUI ( Graphic User Interface ) that’s Entirely Unique for that User.

i should think that it would be very, very easy to simply tear out big chunks of an older computer & replace that with a generic ‘New’ Components.

Occasionally you’d come across some nut-case that would want Their Old computer repaired with ‘Original’ or ‘Nearly-Original’ components, & this ( may be ) possible from time to time, as i believe that there are many of these old 4-bit processors still in use ( for very different purposes ) & it should be a simple matter of drawing upon a universal Encyclopedic repository of these old Operating Systems & Other Controller Start-Up routines—

But most of The Time; Safe Haven ( The Alternative Store’s Name; Whose Motto is : Every Old Computer is A New Computer Tomorrow ) would be performing perfectly routine Computer Maintenance that would be their cheese & crackers. The Other Stuff would be their Idle Gossip Advertising that ordinary companies, like Apple, McDonalds or Geiko, spend Millions & Millions dollars on, to generate Good Will & Company Loyalty.

This wouldn’t be The only company that uses this ploy of providing good ( &/or unique ) products & services in leu of expensive advertising, but it’s comparatively rare.

More Tediuos & Whiny Bothersome Details of A Pointless Universe ( ? )

Saturday, August 16, 2014 1:05:38 PM

Another Example of...

i have noticed that with each new platform or application version, while there are more do-dads attached to them, they will invariably become dumber in other respects.

 

i just discovered ( ? ) that i can Not add a sound file to a pdf which i can create from a TextEdit or Pages Document.

It used to be that there were several Appliances that allowed you to create full media presentation documents that you could send around to other people over pre-internet neighborhood phone networks ( ! ) i forget what we called them ( ? )

 

Anyways; That’s gone now.

 

i just occurred to me that i might be able to do this with something like a ‘presentation’ application, which i have somewheres around here, on disk or possibly on my backup hard-drive, but i haven’t used that EVER, & i would undoubtedly require a receiver application on The computer of whomever i sent The document to ( ! )

 

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i have ‘discovered’ ( or realized ! ) that there is a very simple solution to this; & that is; Simply ‘Compress’ a TextEdit Document ( which have all sorts of fun features built into them ) & then Post it through my Google Drive Folders.

This would allow my Documents to be shared in Exactly The Way i’d like them to be viewed, along with Video & Sound Files integrated into them; But — They could only be viewed on The Macintosh ( Apple ) Platform.

So be it.

 

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Another way that The internet is getting dumber is that it used to be very easy to goto what were called ‘Chat Rooms’ to ask some crazy question that you’d have. There were so many different Chatrooms with so many different Topics, that it was pretty easy to find The Right Room & have any question you’d like answered, answered; So long as it would have some specific, well defined Answer, & Not The sort that philosophers or scientists would endlessly debate about.

i’m pretty sure that there still are ChatRooms, But The last time i went looking for them, on Yahoo i think ( ? ), The Concept & Navigation of them had become very muddled from The AOL Days, when their usage was very well defined & easy & fun to use.

i seem to recall that most of The Chatrooms i last visited had been taken over by foreigners, which is fine, if it’s clear from The outside what culture is dominating it, but they weren’t labeled in this sense at all.

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The Question that i’ve been trying to get answered, & i’ve tried typing this into Google & some other Search Engines, is: There is a Western Film, made pre-2000 ( ? ), in which, at The End of The Film, there is s GunSlinger Shoot Out, & The Villain is Shot, but he’s still standing, then The camera dollies around him, & we can see in his shadow, a dot of sunlight revealing that he’s been shot through The chest ( ! ) & then he falls over. What is The Name of this film ?

i would think that this would be such a Signature Shot that it would be easy to find, but nothing is coming up. i suspect that if i could connect with ‘People’ that are film buffs & sit in front of their computer all day, as i have witnessed for other venues ( ! ) This would be easy to find The Answer to.

But that sort of Access has either been removed from The Internet or ( more likely ) It has been Buried & is now very difficult to find.

i suspect ( Strongly Suspect ) that there are many ‘Features’ on The Internet in The Guise of Various Websites & Services, but are Not nearly as well ( Promoted ) as Facebook, or Twitter. There are fringe items that i do know about & i would consider Flickr one of these, that should be well understood & accessible, but aren’t.

During The Early AOL Days ( circa: 1990± ) Using AOL provided Easy Access to all these Primal Features, & it was really enjoyable to use them. But. Even within AOL, after only a few years, these sites & The Structure became so muddled that it began to resemble what The Internet is like now.

i kind of suspect that Yahoo & Google have or are trying to create portals that resemble something like i’m describing, but they are falling far short of it. ( ? )

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Furthermore; i think that Google Blogs have somekind of Access Barrier to them that prevents anyone from just stumbling into them & freely interacting with them. Part of this is to protect them from Spammers, which i consider The Only True Terrorists in The World Today. The Spammers are Destroying The Functionality of The Internet, Along with Advertisers in General that make many sites completely unusable.

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i think that perhaps The way The internet should work, is to extend The Prying, Spying Eyes of Google Search Engines ( & others ) to their Logical Conclusion ( or nearly there ), & Take all The Overt Advertising off of The Web so that it becomes extremely Easy to Use & access information from it; Then Custom Create A ‘Sears & Roebuck’ Catalogue for Each Individual based on their Search Habits & uh, Oh What do call ‘em, Demographics, that Perfectly suits them, so that this Catalogue would be Nothing But Colorful ‘Christmas Catalogue’ Blurbs that Internet users would eagerly browse through, & find only things that they are genuinely interested in ( ! )

So that instead of trying to avoid all The Ads, Users would eagerly swim through them ( ! )

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i hate =The View=

Friday, August 8, 2014 7:31:25 PM

i hate The View

It is a very awful thing to say that i hate The View ( Morning TV Show ), because i have never watched The View ( !!! )

i have watched snippets of it, & Parodies of it, & it’s my ‘Perception’ that it consists of very dumb, very talkative, chatty women talking over one another without considering The Tenets of Sound High School Level Debate Tactics, or having any consideration for The ‘Rights’ or ‘Opinions’ of The Other Ladies at The Table.

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So i have thought of a possible Solution.

This would Not Completely Change The Template or Scaffolding of The View,

But it would allow any Given Speaker to Promote a Salient Opinion about something without having to worry about being shouted down.

It would be called ‘The EggTimer Clause’

Each Lady or Guest at The Table would be allowed 3 such EggTimer Clauses per week, in which they would bring out an egg-Timer, A physical Egg-Timer, & place it on The Table— They would wait a moment or two to let everyone quiet down, which they would be duty-bound to do, & then They’d turn it over & speak uninterrupted for 3 minutes.

As just mentioned; they would only be allowed to use this 3 times a week, While a guest would be allowed one usage per visit.

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The Weakness of this idea is that i don’t believe that any of The View’s Regular Chatters could be expected to adhere to The 3 minutes of silence.

Also; In The TV reality, 3 minutes is an eternity, so that The Egg-Timers may have to be rejiggered to run for only 2 or 1 minute(s.

A More Reasonable Gawd & The Problem of Giving Away Babies

Monday, August 4, 2014 9:17:32 AM

Giving Away Babies

 

i hate presents.

i hate giving away presents,

i hate getting presents.

 

i still have this FREE Coffee Promotional that i got from A Local Radio Station for Putting them on Retainer for $10 a month.

The reason that i’m Not Using this Coffee Promotional which would allow me to pick up a bag of Premium Coffee every month, is that i like coffee, but it makes me sick. i can drink a little tiny bit everyday, like one cup, but anymore than that will make me throw up !

So i was thinking that i should just give this to someone, but i haven’t been able to find someone that i would TRUST to Use it ( ! )

i don’t want to just give to someone that wouldn’t use it.

i’ve done that before & it makes me angry & frustrated & sick !

Or— i’ve given someone something ( personal ) that i thought was very special, & they didn’t, & they either threw it away or destroyed it or abused it horribly.

The trouble with Presents is that if you get something for FREE, It doesn’t have any value. Unless you’re prepared to give something without any value, any real value, something truly valueless, a great or Infinite ( Seamless Continuum ) amount of Value; You shouldn’t be ENTRUSTED with it !

 

And The Same goes for Receiving Presents; Most of The Presents that i’ve received; i thought were CRAP ! Getting a Crappy Present doesn’t fill me with Joy; It makes me VERY Sad !

Very, Very Sad. i have routinely burst out into tears on Chrstmsa ( Z-Mass ) Morning because of this. So it Effectively ruins The Festive Atmosphere for me & to some extent, others.

 

Imagine that you’re gawd ( Ea, El Shaddai, JHVH, Baal ) & you discovered some time ago that you can create autonomous souls, but once they’re created, you Can Not Destroy them ( ! )

And ! You Discover to your Additional Horror that you can’t reliably create Souls of High Quality. Or Good Souls. They come out pretty well, most of The Time, but when they go bad, they turn out very badly, & then you’re stuck with them. What are you going to do with all these Bad Souls ( ? )

Make them into Beetles ( ! ) ?

If The Beetle Solution were Correct, that would mean that Most Souls don’t turn out well, but Most of them turn out very, very crappy !

 

But what i was thinking originally, along this thread, was that if you’re gawd & you’ve just created A New Soul that looks pretty much OK, & you want to transfer it to your Aquarium, You have to EnTrust it to a Family to Raise it, & what if this Family Abuses your New Soul !

Man !

Wouldn’t that be Annoying, Wouldn’t that just Tear You Up !

 

i have this crazy idea that gawd isn’t omnipotent.

gawd is just a guy ( or gal or (x )

gawd is a reasonably intelligent creator.

 

By thinking of gawd as a reasonably intelligent creator,

99.97 % of all Theological ‘Troubles’ disappear.

Nearly all Criticisms of gawd ( JHVH ) start with; If Jehovah is Omnipotent or All Good, or All Just, Why…

Why do so many animals look like they were an accidental creation by Evolution ?

Why is there Evil in The World ?

Why Do Bad things happen to Good People ?

Why did a Third of The Angels side with Lucifer ?

Why did gawd’s greatest creation ( The Arch-Angel Lucifer ) Turn Against gawd ?

Why is there A Hell ?

 

And so on.

 

If gawd is Omnipotent, these are very troubling.

But if gawd is just a guy, ( A unisexual being of Indeterminant Genital appearance or functionality ) Then all of these difficulties just evaporate.

 

It also explains what The Meaning of Life is.

Really.

Our Meaning of Life is The same as gawd’s now—

 

Keep Busy.

 

Things are constantly changing,

But they’re Not ( really ) getting any ‘Better’.

Evolutionarily Speaking; The Animals that Existed 700 Million Years ago, were just as sophisticated as The Animals of Today.

The Argument that ‘Intelligence’ is somehow ‘Better’ from A Environmentally Sustaining Perspective is Dubious.

Intelligence would seem to suggest a pattern of Squalor, Wretchedness, Confusion, Ruination that follows in The Wake of Technological Ingenuity that allows Sentient Beings to take this Comportment to Other Worlds that would be much ‘Happier’ if they were filled with Just Trees, Fish & Rabbits.

Charlie Horse Synchronicity

Wednesday, July 30, 2014 4:46:54 PM

Charlie Horse Synchronicity

i don’t get Charlie Horses ( Very Painful Cramp in my lower leg ) very often, but in The last year or so, i’ve a couple of them, in both legs, & my usual solution is to pull The leg up as tightly as i can into a fetal position. The Contraction usually only lasts less than a minute, & does Not persist thereafter in any way ( usually ).

What is odd about it though, is that it is so painful. Its Not simply that The muscles are contracting, but they’re contracting in a random manner ( ? ) so that that section of the leg ( involving several muscles ) is pushing & pulling ( ? ) to create a ‘knotting’ effect. ( i know ( ? ) of course that muscles only contract & relax, but this sensation is best explained with delusional thinking ! )

But i was wondering about this a little bit, & was thinking that i should look this up on Wikipedia & see what causes them, & what The best solution is.

So today; While watching The Doctors on Afternoon TV, they had a very short segment on Charlie Horses & had an Audience Member reveal that her solution is to simply pinch her upper Lip ! ( ! ) which suggests that Either; This Cure is merely a distraction which allows your muscles to relax, or perhaps The Charlie Horse cycles through it’s normal time allocation while you’re pinching your lip ( ! )

Or maybe it has to do with Acupuncture ( ? )

But more succinctly; How often do you hear about Charlie Horses ?

& What was The Statistical Likelihood of hearing this segment a day or so after having one of my rather rare ones ?

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