Monday, November 22, 2004

12 Entirely Reasonable Beliefs

Twelve Entirely Reasonable Beliefs

Index:

1: TimeTravelers are Amongst Us

2: We are The Property of Aliens

3: Various Necessary Technologies are Being Cruelly Suppressed

4: The Real Secret Organizations are Actually Secret.

( One of The Great Accomplishments of Our Government

was to Convince its Citizens that it could Not Keep a Secret! )

5: The Bible was Written by Satan

6: Introduction to The Infinite Continuum of Realities

7: People are Morons

8: The Public Schools are Not Failing to Make Children Smarter;

They are Succeeding in Making them Stupid!

9: DNA is a Red Herring

10: Greed

11: Our Karmic Age is Eleven

12: Everyone ( Nearly So ) is a Janitor.

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One
TimeTravelers from The Future are Shaping Our TimeLine


It seems to me that there are a lot of strange & unexplainable circumstances that while--
May be explained away with statistical charts & professionally produced bar charts;
There remains an ill taste of that results from untreated bed sores often found on the sweaty flat surfaces of elderly people with neglectful children.
i am speaking most purposefully of the sorrowful absence of assassinations in this country...
( US of the A's ).
While elections are commandeered by bloated, twangly judges that you or i wouldn't hire as assistant managers for an all night restaurant;
and While Corporate officers of multinational conglomerates rape our grandmothers--
The Damp Masses sit idly on their pianoless fingers & hum tunes from advertisements that they laborously memorized during their sad & unwashed childhoods.
Or so it would seem...???
Why is it that everywhere else in the world; When two grown men have a reasonable disagreement about the price of carrots or who was in a long forgotten film made in Japan...
They resort immediately to fisticuffs or long boards with nails protruding at irregular angles...?
Because in those countries; They don't have Time Travelers to undo their plain acts of hooliganry. ( Like we do here! )
Likewise; There is a suspicious lack of robot toys & robot toy kits...?
This might be explained away as a conspiracy amoung industrial management guilds...
But how could they control mom & pop businesses from distributing their products...under tables or by some method similar to Amway...???
No-- The only reasonable solution calls for Time Travelers from The Future.
The only question that remains; Are they acting for our good or theirs?
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Two
We are The Property of Aliens: ( Extraterrestrial )

Some time ago The Magazine 'Scientific American' distributed an issue that asked
The Question: "Where are They?"
Meaning; The Aliens... The Walking Fish People, Greys, Martians or The Rarely witnessed; Ronald McDonald.
This gave this dilemma some authority that it had previous been lacking...
Pseudo-Skeptics have long held that the other stars, even within our own Milky Way Galaxy are just too dang far away for any civilization, irregardless of how technically superiour they are, to journey from there to here...
Well-- Scientific American said "BUNK!"
That's just silly-- Just because we can't travel to the stars in our dewy eyed foreseeable future, doesn't mean that nobody can...
Furthermore; If there was another planet, just like Earth ( Hypothetically Pondering )
And it was way over on the other side of The MilkyWay Galaxy...
About 300 Million Lightyears away...
And they started out at the same time we did, and duplicated all our biological & climatical events... ( and so on... ) ...so they were just like us...
EXCEPT FOR ONE DETAIL...
And that is that they never had an Age of The Dinosaurs...!
So that when they got around to evolving people and discovering electricity...
They would be about 300 Million years ahead of us...!
With that TINY advantage... And allowing that they would NEVER be able to build spaceships that could travel faster than the speed of light, and perhaps never faster than 10% the speed of light...!!!
THEY WOULD STILL...!!!
...HAVE COLONIZED THE ENTIRE MILKYWAY GALAXY BY NOW...!!!
So considering that some other planet may have only a couple of million years advantage over us, and that they could travel faster than light, or pretty fast by our standards...
They really, really should have been here by now.
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Of course; A lot of people think they ARE HERE...!!!
But the pseudo-skeptics will only be satisfied when they hover over The White House or Kremlin and drop from their circular windows; toy monkeys that will cure cancer or tell us how to eat whatever we want & stay thin.
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Regretfully; That will NEVER HAPPEN...!!!
Movies & Books that have lightly discussed this issue, routinely give their Ant Headed Visitors either a desire to conjure our world and eat our delicious brains, or invite us to join their club of space ship racing dune buggies...!?!?
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Well-- The simple truth is: If they're coming all this way for something...?
What is it that we have, That they don't?
Water, Gold, Uranium...??? Beef Flavored French Fries...???
They could easily find or make these sorts of things with their commonly available serpent generators and atom splicing 'Vacuforms'.
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The one & only thing that we have that they don't have, and can't make, at any cost...
Is that we're WEIRD...!!! REALLY FAWKING WEIRD...!!!
And by this i mean; Unique.
The way we do mathematics, compose music, construct language, consider what is a simple machine and what is not... These represent one case example in the infinite diversity of evolutionary variation...! They might try to create something as boneheaded as our multiplication table... But they'll never be able to come up with it on there own...!
Because they're not as Weird as We Are...!!!
AND THEY WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING TO SPOIL US...!!!
Like contact us overtly...?
Plus; Since they probably seeded us here;
( Consult a book on Biological Diversity and look up "Burgess Shale Repository of Fossils" )
With DNA that they invented and hold a patent on...
They own us; ( ! ) -- And are shielding us from contact with other extraterrestrial races...
If any others even exist ( that they don't own or control )...!
That's why we can't find any of their radio stations, and why they haven't landed in front of an independently owned Television Station.
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The good news is; So long as we STAY WEIRD and keep producing our Unique Version of Popular Culture; They'll protect us from The Klingons ( et. al. ) & ourselves...
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Your Job is To Be Kooky...!
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Three
Various Technologies are Being Suppressed


Do you remember back to when the first computers came out...
The old Atari's, Commodore's & Apple's ( When they were called Apple's and Not PC's!!! )
Well; You may also recall that many of those primitive machines came with their own programming languages, and many came with, or you could easily buy from a 3rd Party Vendor, a Simple Robot that would roll around on the floor, and draw flowery pictures or mark up the linoleum...!
Now-- Centuries later; you Can't buy an easy to use Programming Language anywhere for any price, and robots, the dream of the 21st Century to put us all in hammocks for the rest of our lives have mysteriously disappeared as well...
Even the 'Fancy' Robots that are now coming out of Japan are LESS SOPHISTICATED than the robots that Disneyland had 50 years ago... and can barely hold their own against the rare, but exquisite mechanical robots from the 1800's...!!!
What The Heck Happened...???
Even The Lego Robot Kit, The only robot kit on the market; Is specifically designed so that you CAN'T make a viable robot with it... Have you seen any...???
No! You haven't...!
And it may well be that somebody, somewhere, figured out the obvious problem with robots...
And that is; They're as Dangerous as an auditorium full of monkeys with a Chain Saws...!
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Can you imagine what would happen if 12 year olds could actually built a platform that was fully autonomous and was mounted with a video camera, BB gun or aerosol Can & a BIC lighter...???
And what happens when they turn 16...???
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The question is; Who has the power to suppress an entire industry like this...
All over the World...???
What if JUST ONE TROUBLE MAKER... ( like me ) ...Were to tell you how FAWKING EASY it would be to turn an HP48 Programmable Calculator and a pocket full of NAND circuits into a BalsaWood automaton that could use the network of GPS Satellites to fly anywhere in the world and act like a 20 Million dollar Cruise Missile...!!! ( For less than 600$ ) ( ? )
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The World would End.
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Who can stop Me...???
There is only one answer; Time Travelers from The Future.
Believe me restful readers-- They are doing their job. ( for good or ill )
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Four
There are Various ( Partisan & Non-Partisan )

Secret Organizations Operating Around Us...

It seems entirely reasonable to me that at some time in the past,

possibly recently, but more likely-- thousands of years ago;
a particularly smart person knew another particularly smart person,
and they decided to start a club of smart people that shared ideas & resources and then; as these things often do-- became a secret society.
NOW --
It should be noted that ALL OF THE SECRET SOCIETIES THAT YOU KNOW ABOUT...!
Is not THIS Secret Society.
i'm talking about THE REAL ONE...!!!
All the 'Other' Secret Societies are just 'a bunch of guys' ( usually just guys ) that have formed a club & like to spank each other while wearing Halloween masks.
This Real Secret Society that i'm referring to has a name ( almost certainly ) --
But i don't know what it is.
IT'S A GAWD DANG SECRET...!!!
So anyways...
What's so special about THIS Secret Society...?
Well -- Depending upon when they formed;
They are probably hundreds or thousands of years more technologically advanced than
'The rest of us'.
Are they the ones buzzing around in 'The Flying Saucers'...???
Are they the 'Men in Black'
( And by this; i mean 'The Tricksters that have appeared throughout humanimal history,
and not just the recent spate of 'AirForce Operatives' that seem principly interested in UFO's. )
Are they good or not very good, or like most smart people, just want to be left alone to 'do their thing'...???
Who knows...???

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Five
The Bible was Written by Satan!
( or : Only Atheists will Get Into Heaven! )


If you think about what is in The Bible much than you probably are not a Christian.
Those that do think about what's in there are a mixed sort,
But what i've been thinking about lately is that most everything in The Bible is EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE of what i WOULD EXPECT from a Supreme Being.
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When i say 'Satan' -- i should clarify that 'My Satan' is probably a little different from 'Your Satan' -- Just as 'My Gawd' is probably a little different from 'Your Gawd'...!
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My Gawd; For example is the creator of this fractional reality spectrum.
This layer.
Gawd has his or her own layer, and it might very well be just as phony as ours...!
That is; i believe (! ) that our reality; This Layer;
Is just one of An Infinite Continuum of Realities.
( i sometimes call this a 'Screen Saver Reality' )
There is a bottom to The 'Real' Universe, and that bottom is called: The Kitchen Floor.
But for the time being; Let us not digress too awfully much.
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Satan is NOT the exact opposite of Gawd; Satan is more like The Mischievious ID of Gawd, or his little sister, or a hacker from across the street. Gawd & Satan probably know each other,
( If they're not the same ( person ) )...
The point being; Is that Satan is working with Gawd for some end purpose...
And that is --- ???
But!
They have left us some clues.
Let us first take into consideration that some humanimals are smarter than others,
and that we ( believe we do ) have something like Freewill... ( Consciousness )
And that Gawd may be interested in Harvesting -- The Good Ones Amoung Us... ( ? )
To do this ---
( This is NOT an Original Idea... It's been battered around by a number of other authors & philosophers... )
--- Satan has written a clever little book ( amoung others ) Called The Bible.
And in it: He promises you a Heavenly Respite when you're dead,
And all you have to do is a few ( arguably ) Nutty Things...
Like Mutilate your Genitals, Stick your Head in a Bucket of Water, & Completely Turn Your Brain Off.
If you don't do these things; You'll burn in Hades for All Eternity.
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At any given time in History; When people ACTUALLY BELIEVED THIS BOLOGNA,
Just try to imagine how BRAVE and HEROIC and TRUE you would have to be to yourself to TURN AWAY FROM THAT... to SEEK THE TRUTH, and TRY TO BE REALLY GOOD...!
( that is; Seek genuine truth & goodness )
( it might be noted that people that BELIEVE in 'That Crap' already think they know the real truth & what goodness is...Persecuting gays for example; murdering innocent Islamic children, ignoring reality... and so on... )
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Digression:
One thing that most annoys me about 'Gawd' and 'The Bible' is that;
It seems to me that if Gawd really wanted to leave us 'A Message' --
Then s/he would have done it in such & such a way so that it would be impossible to misinterpret or corrupt it in any way... and the VERY ANTITHESIS of this would be to leave this message in a book, written in a dead language.
The Best way: Would be to leave the message In The Universe Itself...
And THEN: It would be available to ANYONE, ANYWHERE without a priestly class to interpret it for them...! You wouldn't have to join a club to find this message, all you have to do, IS LOOK AROUND YOU...!!!
Alright... So some people are really dumb, and they wouldn't be able to 'figure this message out'... Does that mean that they would go to hell...
NO! If you'll recall -- The entire idea of hell is make, turning away from gawd a particularly Heroic & Noble Act of Truth Seeking...

It doesn't really exist...
So what would be in This Message...???
Bonus Extras.
You'd get into Heaven without them, But they're just something a little extra for people that want to keep busy.
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So: The end point is that--
Only Atheists will Get Into Heaven.
And the people that believed all that crazy nonsense in The Bible...
i don't know what will happen to you... Either a really lame heaven, or reincarnation, or something else...???
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Six
All is Maya
( or : An Introduction to The Infinite Continuum of Realities )

This is: i'm convinced; A Screen Saver Reality.
It has incorporated within it, innumerable clues that 'give it away' as a fake reality.
Such as Gravity.
Or ElectroMagnetism.
Or Consciousness.
There's just no way that our brains, in this reality, with the physical laws that are governing us, are going to allow anything as frizzy as Consciousness to exist!
( Are we living in A Universe that is So Cruel,
That it allows us to Be Aware that we are Robots. )
What good does knowing this do you?
In "The Matrix"; Neo is allowed to fly around and morph into the machine representation of Mr. Smith, Just be 'Knowing' ( Really, REALLY TOTALLY FAWKING KNOWING!!! ) that he's living in a 'Fake' Reality.
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i just don't see that happening.
In my interpretation; There's this thing, One Reality Layer Up, that is Generating our Reality...
And i call it; Blandly enough, The Reality Generator.
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The Reality Generator.
To better understand how The Reality Generator that produces Our Reality Works...
It might be beneficial to Make One For Ourselves...!!!
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How much trouble would it be to create a Virtual ( Fractional ) Reality that is every bit as real as Our Reality... ???
The first problem is that if we want to put 'Real People' into our fractional reality--
Ones that can think & exercise freewill; Just like us... ( ? )
We're stuck -- because no one knows how to do that yet...!!!
But -- If we step aside that for the moment...
Let us move on to other things.
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To begin:
Let's first 'Allow' that THIS Reality is Pretty Much Exactly As It Is.
That is; It's really real.
( This contradicts our original thesis, But we're only pretending to imagine that it's really real as a point to take off from... We don't REALLY believe it, But we have to start somewhere... ! )
So -- If this Reality is Really Real, Then WE are Really Real.
Our bodies and BRAINS are Really Real, and within Each Persons Brain is a complete MODEL, A Schematical Model of THE ENTIRE FREAKING UNIVERSE...!!!
It's missing a lot of the fine details, But everyone that is walking around has within their own minds, a fully functioning, 100% viable representation of reality.
NOW... If we wanted to create A Fractional Reality of our own, that filled a volume of 14.7 Billion Years across, back & forth, up & down, side to side... We'd only need to obtain a hard drive, with the holding density of a human brain, about the size of a human brain...!!!
To make the whole thing work really well, and to allow some margin of error to creep in along the edges... and to allow more than just one fully autonomous person to inhabit our reality...
We'd buy one several times that size... One that we could fit under the table, or in the closet.
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But Still...
Even if there were only a few dozen 'Real People' inhabiting our reality... And making everyone else just 'puppets'... we would still need to perform numerous 'tricks' to make the whole thing work... ( ? )
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One trick is a routine that we could superimpose on our participants psychics that would provide them with 'A Sense of Familiarity'...!
Let's say that our Alpha participant is walking through a neighborhood several blocks from where she lives... To save memory, We never actually created a permanent model of this neighborhood, but we merely mapped it out as 'A Neighborhood' and whenever one of our 'Conscious Participants' penetrates one of these regions, The Computer generates a neighborhood 'On The Fly' and 'Inserts' into the mind of our participant A Sense of Familiarity!
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i think that the Reality Generator that Creates our reality must use something very much like this, because it seems to me that 'My Environment' is changing a little bit from time to time, and that The Familiarity Routine has some 'Bugs' in it, so that i'm left with a sense that it's NOT Familiar...!!! Things that really shouldn't have changed... Have changed...!!!
Is it me; Or The Reality?
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Another Trick that our Fractional Reality might employ is to only model things that need to be modeled.
If our Conscious Participants have never been to Australia, then there's no reason to actually generate any details of what's there. When one of our participants looks at a photographic book of Australia, then our computer generates pictures on the fly, and... perhaps ...makes a set of notes that will be used later to ensure consistency when a participant looks at another book or actually visits there.
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The Fractional Reality that we're going to create should hold many surprises for US...
So that our computer will only generate new phenomena when a participant demands it,
and the resulting phenomena will be what the participant expects... ( more or less... )
This means that if they've never cut into an actual pig before... they won't know what to find...
It could have anything inside there... But they will probably have some expectations of what they will find, So the computer examines their minds and generates a reality that won't startle them 'too much'...!
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Does this mean that the computer has to be conscious itself...???
Well -- It should be MORE conscious or 'Able' than the participants...
So from our perspective of watching and interacting (?) with the participants,
We'll also be interacting with the computer that generates that reality...!!!
If we're playing [ gawd ] -- Then the computer that's creating our play-time reality will be our Angels...! They'll be doing all the real work, and we can influence how things go from time to time...
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Just like The Gawds that are supervising Our Reality.
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One of the most annoying 'Attributes' that is often placed on our gawd is the varying forms of omnipotence and being All Good and so on... This is COMPLETELY UNWARRANTED...!!!
The real gawd that is overseeing our reality, is in all probability, a 12 year old using off the shelf software, on a computer that's been obsolete for 15 years.
THEN:
To make everything even hinkier...
The computer that's generating our reality is hooked up to the internet, so that people all over that world can watch us... We're his Home Page...!
But -- This also allows other 12 & 15 year olds to HACK INTO OUR REALITY...!!!
Maybe this would explain Flying Saucers, Ghosts & a Whole Slew of Other anomalous Phenomena...!!!
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Seven
People are Morons.

Honestly...

i believe that if you were to take any major metropolitan city,
And remove the upper crust - ( 20% of the brains & creative lumpettes )
The remaining 80%; in as little as six months, would revert to their natureal social state of something very much like a chimpanzee culture, only without all the mutual grooming.
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Eight
Schools Aren't Failing to Make Our Children Smart;
They're Succeeding in Making them Stupid!

Whenever i suggest to someone that EVERYTHING that children are taught in our ( USA ) public school system is falsehoods & lies...!
They respond in a manner that would insist that this is an obvious exaggeration...!
But -- The more i think about it; The more i'm convinced that there are so few 'accuracies' in the materials that are being infused into our children; That 'Everything' is more accurate, and qualifiably simpler, than to include amoung the grand mountain of nonsense, those few exceptions.
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One of my Grand Pet Peeves is the frequently demonstrated case of
Which will fall faster; The hammer or the feather!
This experiment supposedly dates back to the experiments of Galileo... or Newton...
or Bill Bixby... ( ??? )
Anyways; i'm sure you're familiar with the basic premise;
If you were to drop a hammer & a feature ( in a vacuum to be especially accurate )
Which would fall faster...?
The Populist Answer is that they would fall at the same rate...!
Which is Completely Wrongity Wrong, and Wrong, Wrong, Wrong...!!!
It couldn't be more Wrong.
The Correct Answer is; The Hammer.
The confusion is brought about by the substantially greater size of The Earth than either The Hammer or The Feature...!!!
The Difference between The Accumulative Gravitational Attraction of The Earth & The Hammer, and The Earth & The Feather...
Is Very, Very, Very, VVVEEERRRYYY TINY...!!!
But the sum of the Earth & hammer is greater...
This would be alot easier to see if you were dropping The Moon & The Feather on The Earth,
Rather than the hammer & feather...!!!
Why is this so bad...
Because it's teaching children ( and many adults ) to THINK BADLY...!!!
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Another of my pet peeves is teaching children that our modern mathematical system was brought about substantially by the introduction of the ZERO...! Without the Zero, so it is said, We would be unable to Add & Subtract with the ease that we do...!
i would be willing to concede that if we were choosing between the Roman System of Alphanumerics & our current middle eastern collection of actual numbers... The numbers win.
But if you instead took the numbers and simply removed the Zero... Allowing for one between 1 & -1... and that's all...! You could still have a perfectly viable system of mathematics, and be able to add & subtract, multiple & divide, and use nonecimal fractions with the same ease that we do now... ( allowing for a few months of getting used to it...! )
It's a little confusing trying to demonstrate this system with numbers, so; instead, i'll give you a brief introduction using the alphabet, because you don't have any ( preconceived ideas about how alphabetic characters should behave as quantitative symbols...??? )
For this example; The base we'll be using will have 26 numbers; A through Z
A will be One, B will be Two and so on...
Until Z equals TwentySix.
THEN; Without the Zero; TwentySeven will be AA.
Using the same method as we do with a base ten system of 'Numbers';
You can break this down into columns with The lefter most A being equal to One Set of TwentySix's, and the Righter most A being equal to one set of One.
TwentySix Plus One Equals TwentySeven...!
TwentyEight would then be AB... and so on.
Natureally; You can then create a Table of Addition & Multiplication, which would be memorized as Decimalians memorize theirs and off you go.
The Necessity of Zero is A BIG FAT MYTH...!!!
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Think Dang It...!!!
Refute all that crazy nonsense that they've filled your head with...
You'll be far better off, if you simply recall various items that you've been taught,
and Believe Exactly the Opposite...!!!
( The exceptions to this rule are so few that when you encounter one, it will be immediately obvious & reversible before extensive monetary damages should occur. )
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Another Case is The Seven Simple Machines!
The Seven as they are commonly listed are:
The Lever / & Fulcrum
The Incline Plane
The Wedge
The Screw
The Pulley
The Wheel & Axel
And The ---?---
Clearly; The Incline Plane and The Wedge are the same tool.
It's only that one moves through the material being separated, The other remains stationary while the material moves on one side of the Wedge. It's basically a topological problem...
Likewise; The screw is an Incline Plane/Wedge, that is wrapped around an Axel.
And why does the Wheel get an Axel, while The Pulley, which is the same tool, does not...!
Again; The Wheel moves along a Track, While the Track moves around a Pulley.
As For the Lever, It's a self contained Inclined Plane, and isn't a Wheel a circular Lever, where as the Fulcrum is the axel... Visualize a ball being thrown essentially horizontally... vs- being thrown so hard that it reaches orbital velocity...! The Wheel as a Lever demonstrates the same relationship...!
It seems to be that The Seven Simple Machines are Actually manifestations of a single principle, While there are countless other Machines that are not mentioned...
Just what is a Machine anyways...???
Is a Diode a Machine, A Hole...??? A Sphere...? A Plane...?
A Hollow Space...? ( Daoists & Buddhists would say: Yes! )
A String...? An Axel is Clearly a Machine in itself...
Can a Simple Machine have parts...??? How many Parts...???
If you allow a Lever to have a Fulcrum,
( A stick; which is an independent machine, with a vertice )
Then why not Let 5 or 6 parts form a simple machine...???

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Nine
DNA is A Red Herring.

It was thought for awhile that there were something like 30,000 good Introns of DNA that made actual Proteins...

But Now; It looks like that number has been reduced to 25,000 or less...!
Given that a typical page of text has 1000 characters on it,
That's 25 pages of text that make up the instructions for one humanimal being...!!!
Never mind the trillions of DNA couplets... Most of them are just old candy wrappers, and probably not even viable instructions for wings or extra organs that have 'turned off'...!
And Plus; Each of those Introns, that makes one Protein is all folded up to resemble a Lego Block, and the functionality of all those proteins results from how these Lego-Blocks fit together with one another...!
Just consider when a baby is being made; The single cell that you start out as, divides again & again, and when it needs to start making a ligament to connect to a bone, and where to split a blood vessel or when to start making a tiny bump on a vertibrae, that has to be encoded somewhere... the cell has to be told when to do that... which means that every little spot where there's a decision to be made, that has to be in the DNA... and there are A LOT MORE than 25,000 of there Decisions... if that's all your DNA did... But of course, it does A LOT MORE than that... it has to make all your tissue types & encode parts of your brain to process visual information, and how to suck on a nipple... PLUS SO MUCH MORE...!!!
So to rescue DNA, they ( Scientists ) are now suggesting that the good Introns mix & match themselves to make a huge vocabulary of 'words' from these basic 25,000 'letters'...
BUT -- Where does the Dictionary Reside that tells where and how the letters are to be arranged...???
And Plus; If every little instruction provided by the DNA is now an assemblage of Introns,
Then how would EVOLUTION ever work...???
If any given Intron were to mutate, then it would almost certainly mess up all the words that it was a part of... So that it either wouldn't fit together with them, OR cause Crazy Changes throughout the entire organism...!!! There could never be 'Tiny' Evolutionary Changes...
There could only be HUGE, devastating Changes... and how often would such a catastrophic Collection of Changes be to the organisms benefit...???
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In Short: If DNA isn't the Blueprint of how were made... Then what is...?
Maybe Reality itself is all wrong...?
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Ten
The Trouble with The World;
Is Not that People are Too Greedy--
The Trouble with The World is that People aren't Greedy Enough.

This is a very simple idea...
People normally waste their resources in a thoughtless manner,
Which; If they were more attentive to The Value of Their possessions,
Would be able to get more out of them, and in turn, require less crap to replace it.
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When we apply this simple idea to People;
It means that Employers should be more concerned with understanding their chattel,
So as to Exploit them in a manner that would be most beneficial to them, and their Resources.
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Eleven
The Vertice of Humanimal Chronophisiometry is that of An Eleven Year Old.

Have you ever noticed that young children seem to be really smart...
Not only do they learn any given language in a few years, Without Even Being Taught It!
They rapidly absorb innumerable facts and trivial without a least effort...
This phenomena persists until they're 'Around 11'...
And thereafter they seem to become Dumber & Dumber.
Even Humanimals that remain smart throughout their lives,
Were REALLY smart before they turned 12.
And when you examine a cafeteria of Children, or an auditorium of Adults
And make an effort to note their Maturity...
The number of Children with Adult Quality Maturity;
Is Matched by the Adults with Childish Quality Maturity...
This seems to suggest to me that Maturity is Not Age dependent...!!!
That People are just Fixed from the moment that they're born with qualities of Intelligence & Maturity ( et. al. ) and that when they're around 11 years old... Those qualities seem to match their age.
Eleven is the 'Normal' Age to which all People should exist at...
If we were Immortal.

But since we're not; We just pass through that phase, and it's often neglected as a bump in our otherwise tragic existence of imbalance.

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Twelve
80% (+) of All Jobs are Essentially Janitorial. ( Maintenance of The Status Quo )

Doctors maintain people, Engineers maintain Machines or The Cultural Manifestations of 'Stuff'...
All Middle Management Administrators simple maintain the Status Quo, Librarians, Astronauts, Racecar Drivers simply dance on a stage to keep the unemployed & otherwise idyll loafers from getting into endless mischief.
A scant 20% ( Probably much less! ) Actually ever do anything to construct Western Civilization, or Modify it from it's precarious operational parameters...
( Consider all the Big Self Important Countries that fall over every few years & lay there like sick puppies with tummies full of laundry detergent, Like The USSR, China or Yugoslavia )
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Friday, November 19, 2004

HealthNews Update

Right Knee

It's coming along, it's finally scabbing over...??? Maybe...?
It's not a regular scab, it's more like a hard puss covering...?
But -- right next to it, is another owy that i think may have been exasperated by the hankercheif that i've been using to hold the bandage in place...

Cold

I've been under the impression that a cold will last exactly 7 days,
So when this one didn't end yesterday; i became extremely alarmed...!
OK-- it may be fading... but it's not overwith...?
Do your colds go through cycles so that you have one set of symptoms on one day,
then another set the next day...???
The phase that it's in now is runny nose, even though i already went through the runny nose phase last Tuesday... But -- to be fair; this may not be actually a runny nose, this may be some kind of "Residual HyperPhlegm Cycle Out"... ( ? )


Saturday, November 13, 2004

Why i Left Bremerton

Why i Left Bremerton... ( ? )

1:
i'd been wanting to get the heck out of there for at least 5 years...
But once i get marginally settled in, i am just loath to move...
Plus i'd accumulated a huge pile of crap... Which-- When i was forced to leave, got thrown out without even looking back...! ( Although; Some of the packages that i sent out, have mysteriously, either disappeared, or have become unaccounted for...??? ) ( oh well... )

2:
Things just went all Wiggily...!!!
( Wiggiliness is when crazy bad things happen, then they seem to get better, then they seem to become ambiguous -- and you're not sure if what happened was for the best or not... ( ??? )
Ordinarily; i'd have Wiggily things happen to me every few months... But starting with ( ? ) my telephone breaking... things just got more and more wiggily... and they wouldn't let up...!!!
Wiggily things started happening every day, compounding themselves & jumping up & down, yelling strange foreign sounding slogans, and wetting themselves. ))

3:
Chuck; from the local postoffice mentioned to me one day, offhandedly, that he'd sent 2 or 3
( he wasn't sure how many... maybe more ) of my returned envelopes to 'The Dead Letter Office', because he didn't like the way my return address was formatted...!!!
This is the same return address that i'd been using successfully for months, if not years...
( But this may have been 'accumulating'... since a month or so before this, i'd tried to mail 2 postcards which featured women being SPANKED...!!! and they were Returned...! ( ??? ) )

4:
i've been deeply annoyed since i moved to bremerton that it had a shortage of crazy people...!!!
There were a few crazy people that rode the buses, but these were mostly bus-groupies... people that rode in the front seat and talked incessantly to the driver, and NO ONE ELSE...!
i hate bus-groupies!

5:
Kathy Simber
i like Kathy alot, but she has this wierd effect on me, and i she has been implicated, via witchery or such in breaking at least one of my coffee machines.

6:
The Embossible Dream ( Rubber Stamp Store )
They were just generally driving me crazy...
Like; i was helping with the newsletter, and for awhile they would let me use their stamps in the newsletter, but after awhile, they began to have 'second thoughts' about this, and related a 'story' of another rubber stamp store that had used images of rubber stamps and were sued down to the grime under their toenails...! So i kept trying to get them to write some letters to the various companies that they bought stamps from, asking permission to use their stamps...
and they just flat out refused...!!! ( !!! )
Another thing... After i was evicted, and i was trying to get some of my files printed up before i was going to abandon my computer, and thereafter, these files would be lost ( probably ) Kris decided that Miki was never going to get a new printer, and that i would have to print up enough mailing labels for the end of time...???
So i tried to print up the mailing labels on white paper, that she could then 'copy' onto the sticky labels... but she thought that that would be 'too complicated' and i ended up using the last of my ink in my printer on her dang labels...!!!
( keep in mind that i never got paid a dime for any of this...!!! )

7:
i wasn't getting anything done...
i kept thinking that if i got a nice place, and a drawing board, and a computer or typewriter, and such... i could finally get something DONE...!!!
Like write a book or SOMETHING...!!!
But -- i had 15 years there in Bremerton, and i didn't get ANYTHING done...!!!
Just wasted alot of time with Rubber Stamping and MailArt...!!!
( MailArt - The Bane of Western Civilization...!!! )

8:
Over time i grew to Hate Computers...!!!
Not JUST Microsoft &/or Intel Machines... But Apple and Macintoshes as well...!!!
Computers are just plain evil.

9:
When i tried to get rid of some of my most Avant Garde books, i took them down to this used bookstore that was right next to The Embossible Dream... and he took them, but refused to pay me anything for them...!!! ( he only offered Store Credits... even though i was MOVING OUT OF THE AREA...! )

10:
During this time, i got this idea of cutting out images from magazines and such, and arranging them into collages, and then using the collages to draw from...
Essentially; the collages would allow me to arrange more complex pictures...???
So i started cutting these pictures out, and it became HIGHLY COMPULSIVE...!!!
i filled up several boxes with these cut out images, and NEVER USED ANY OF THEM...!!!
( ok, i used a FEW of them, but less than 1% of all the crap i cut out...)

11:
Another project that i spent hundreds of dollars on, that never brought forth fruit, or even dainty bruised vegetables... was my collection of Lego's Technic Series Blocks and MindStorm Robotics Accessories...!
( i gave these all to the girl ( 7 ( ? ) ) that lived next door. )

12:
i was very annoyed that i could never find a suitable programming language for my Macintosh...???

13:
Lost my good Browser during my 3rd Hard-Drive Crash, and just could not... !!! ...figure out how to replace it...!!! i tried downloading it with both the lame I.E. & Netscape browsers i had, but both of them would interrupt their downloads in the middle and refuse to resume...???

14:
Kayla Khulman
This is a girl that i didn't even know, that committed suicide.
i'd seen her around town, and then when i read her obituary... i thought - she was everything that i wanted in a friend... PLUS -- she was a dwarf...!!! ( i love dwarfs...!!! )

15:
i could not find my favorite Tiny Heart Stickers anywhere...!!!
They just quit making them... or quit stocking them... in the months before my eviction...!!! ( ? )
This was added to the grief of the little fuzzy teddy bears being discontinued too...!!!
( Like all the good TV shows...!!! i just start to like something good on TV, and then they'll cancel it... ) !!!

16:
i was getting too fat.

17:
It just makes me crazy that nobody understands my art...!!!
It's not VERY nasty, but i've had LOTS of people jump away SHRIEKING when they see it.
It just makes me loopy.

18:
i was VERY disappointed with the New millennium.
What happened to The Future?

19:
About a year or so after i moved to Bremerton, it was voted by ( x magazine ) to be America's Most Livable City...!!! i've been around a little big, and Bremerton is a Tiny, Undeveloped Shanty town with terrible roads & a decaying Business District, and the thought that this was the best America could produce fills me with dread.

20:
The Buses in Bremerton...
It just made me CRAZY that they called The North end of town; The East Side, and that they had two Number Eleven Routes that went in completely Opposite Directions, and people were constantly getting on the wrong one... and yet they refused to give each route it's own Number...!!!
To their credit... They had for Several months another Route 11, which they changed, only because when they all got to the transfer station, it was nothing but number 11's, all going to different places, and Even They thought that that was too crazy...!!!

21:
In the last few months, Bremerton put up a Convention Center...
One side of it faces the bay... The Pretty Watery Side... and That side of the Convention Center is a solid wall... with no Windows...!!! You would think that that would be the restaurant side or some such... But Nooo! That's the side for Garbage & Storage...???
( There's another restaurant about a mile from there that ALSO has NO Windows on the side that faces the water...??? )

22:
i just needed a change.
i'd lived there longer than i'd lived anywhere.
( and i hated it...!!! )

Health Issues

My Health - Or the lack thereof...!!!

On the first day of my most recent trip (?) i was feeling pretty good,
so good in fact, that when i got to Corvallis Oregon, i thought that it might be fun to walk to the coast; which on my map looked like about 30 miles, and i was thinking that if i walked all night, i could be there by morning...
After all, i'd walked 20 miles before, and that only took about 6 hours...???
But that 20 miles was on essentially level ground, and this 30 miles, which was probably closer to 60 miles... ( up & down, with lots of curves that were too small for the map to mention ) ...so that after only about 2 hours, and having past a few road signs, which seemed to suggest that i'd traveled only 3 miles, and that it was starting to rain...
Plus - i was in the middle of freaking no-where, and no shelter in sight, i was beginning to become disillusioned...
So i trudged on...
after about about 2 hours, i found a small, 'Riding shelter'...
( a small hut, smaller than a telephone booth, intended to allow someone waiting for a ride, to get out of the rain, assuming that the rain was going to cooperate with you... ? )
So i tried to get some sleep in there, but it was too small, and full of spiders, and filthy...
So i slept fitfully outside, thinking that if it REALLY started raining... i could jump into the shelter...?
So that was my first night.
During that walk... i developed a huge blood blister on my left foot that was very bothersome for about 2 weeks.
( by the way, after walking about another 2 hours or so, after the sun came up, i got a ride with an native american fisherman, that told me the most horrific story about a car accident that he'd come across one time...!!! he was complaining that of all the people that past by in their cars, few, if any stopped to help...! since i would have been one of the people that would have only gawked and passed by, i defended them a little by suggesting that most people, may mean well, and they're hearts would go out to those in need, but we're just to inept to offer any real help...!!!
After all- what could 'I' do... ( except fret helplessly about, and in that paricular case, throw up on the victims...!!! ( the most gruesome element of his story was that a young boy, the son of the driver of a truck, had managed to get his head completely squashed, and this am. indian that was giving me a ride was trying, and failing to just lift the truck off of him...!!! ( for no particular reason... ) ) )
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Getting back to my petty annoyances...
So that blister kept me from walking around for the first two weeks, and during that time i was taking about 6 aspirin a day, and they were tearing my stomach and intestines to shreds... but what else could i do... i switched to Advil's but then i found out that they were really no better on the stomach...
So after about 2 weeks, that blister started to get a little better...
and i started having these weird pains from my right hip...
And then the muscles from the right leg...
Then the left hip...
and a variety of smaller blisters on my toes, and right heel...
and a variety of bug bites ( ? ) and such...
One after the other generally... When one would start to get a little better, then something else would start up...
So the last BIG thing was this crazy Abcess on my right knee, and now that it's started to get a little better... It's healing pretty well, after a week & a half, it's receeded substantially, but there is still a dimple of raw flesh at the middle of it, surrounded by red inflamation, but it's so much better than it was when i went to the emergency room at Queens Hospitial, that i'm not at all worried about it anymore...!!!
So NOW...! that that's 'out of the way'...
i've got a cold.
i'm on my 4th day, and the good news is that it seems like 'just a cold'.
What next?

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Sad Things

Sad Things

Wiggly Sidewalk
In Northern California, There's a town called Rio Del, that is right next to another town called Scotia...
Scotia is a TickyTacky housing Development Arena of Opulence & Museum Quality Exhibits, including the local grocery store that is, or would be, anywhere else; a gifts shoppe along a row of postcard racks.
Rio Del; Literally about a block away from Scotia, across a bridge and 200 years of technological & social development... is a shanty town...!
But that's not the sad part--
The sad part is that by some unimaginable quirk of showmanship or Satanic wheeling & dealing...Someone; Friend or Foe of Rio Del had managed to have 'awarded' to the town, a sidewalk of the highest artistic meritorious quality... (???)
While ordinary sidewalks are straight and get the job done, this sidewalk is wiggly, and comes complete with a few feet, along it's edges of finely cared for, golf course lawn.
All around this spectacle though, which only lasts for about a block & a half, is squalor.
The Sidewalk is place in front of the police station, which is an overturned freight car, & the city hall, a collection of refrigerator boxes, covered with plastic shopping bags, and inside, shredded newspapers. Just off to one side of the sidewalk, is the community library, which is open for nearly an hour every week.
Be sure to visit both if you're ever in that area.
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Hilo's Downtown

One of the first things that struck me about Hilo ( Hawai'i ) is the backwardsness of it.
It's like an old western town, missing only the gun-slingers & a stagecoach riddled with arrows.
i formed this opinion after first spending a day and a half in Honolulu, which; during the last 15 years or so, has come from this same primitive source material to a super 21st Century concordium of highrise office buildings and hotels covered with sparkley plastic tinsel & glitter that turns itself on & off. Where all the money came from to do this, might have leaked out of the military bugets that have secretly been preparing for a century of war-- (?)
The sad part is that poor little Hilo hasn't seen a penny of this avalanche...???
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Crazy People in Hawai'i

When i was first a street person, nearly 20 years ago, there were plenty of crazy people living on the streets... But it seems to me that the quality of street people has been declining...???
( Curiously; my old Hometown; Bremerton- had a shortage of homeless people... or at least, they all hung out in places that i never visited... ? )
Here in Honolulu though, there are several examples of a kind of street person that i find especially annoying... and that is; The Cart Pusher.
As a street person myself; i like to keep the number of things that i carry around to a bare minimum. i have a backpack that is about the size of a bookbag, and although i hate to do laundry ( Laundromats scare the begeezers out of me...! ) i might; in dim light, pass for a disheveled college student...
But the Cart pushers are another breed, they have collected bags, and purses, luggage and bookbags with gawd only knows what, and piled them onto shopping carts or train station luggage carts.
What is particularly annoying / And frightening about these people is that that they are so invisible...!
i would think that the local community governments would set aside a few dollars to move these people onto SSI or whatever, and find some form of minimal housing for them, just to get them out of sight... But NO! They have not...???
What this country really needs is a new plan to intelligently & productively exploit the homeless to everyone's mutual benefit...
Where is the 21st Century...???
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DeHumidifiers @ The UofHawai'i : Hilo

While i was visiting the library at The University of Hawai'i; Hilo, i discovered that in order to control humidity, they'd simply installed a large collection of 'desktop' dehumidifiers all along the parameter of the building, between the stacks of books... that needed to be manually emptied every few hours...!
This strikes me as suggestive that when the building was originally being built, no one had been aware the the library they were designing would be built in Hawai'i...???...thus requiring a permanent, built-in Dehumidification System.
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Long Term Street People

Another of the most distressing things that i've come across in Hawai'i ( Honolulu ) is that i keep finding Street People that were here 17 years ago, as Street People... And they're STILL Street People...!!!
In Particular there was a newly homeless family of Chinese Girls, ( Mother and two daughters )
The girls being about 15 & 17 ( 17 years ago ).
Another is an elderly woman that i would have guessed was 70 ( Then ! ), so she must be 90 by now...! and when i saw her on the bus the other day ( i am so 'shy' i didn't even speak to her, even though she was my friend 17 years ago...! ) she was lugging around a gym bag, without a handle or carrying strap...!
If these people can't find the resources to help them; They i am definitely on my own...
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Monday, November 08, 2004

Where am i going...???

Where am i going...!!! ( ? )

So this last month, i managed to save 300 $'s into my savings account,
which now has 620$ in it...
i've been thinking that next month, i should be able to save 400$,
making the total, a little over 1000$...
But that won't include airfare back to the mainland,
which may be anywhere from 200$ to 800$...???
The 800$ is what United and American want...?
And the 200$ is what i think ATA ( 175$ ) charges for 'Standby'...?
BUT-- ATA is now in BANKRUPTCY...!!!
So i don't know how much they would charge for Standby or Regular fares ( 400$ )-(?)
or Maybe i'll have to use some other airline...
i'm pretty sure that it would be 'around' 500$ - all other things considered... (???)
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And that would come out of my JANUARY allowance...!
So it would be early January before i could leave here...!!!
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But i still don't know where i would go...???
One of the reasons i left Bremerton was that i wanted to get away from all the Television & Radio stations there that are bought & paid for by MicroSoft...! i would just get so tired of all the news broadcasts & various commentaries that would consistently put a 'friendly spin' on all the news-reports of various states, countries, other corporations & individuals, including MS's own employee's that are persistently suing them.
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But i don't want to go to Eastern Washington either...
My Aunt thought it might be nice if i moved back to my alma-mater (?) 'Eastern Washington University' in Cheney, so i'd been close enough to visit my aging mother and change her light bulbs from time to time...!!!
This is the same mother that fed me TV dinners and overlooked the fact the i was completely insane, all those years that i was living there...
Some of the blame should go to the Public School System too... ???
That's the trouble with having a 'subtle' personality disorder... Everyone just thinks you're an odd fish that will somehow 'grow out of it'... ???
( Well -- i didn't. )
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i don't really like Oregon either...
Or California...?
Plus; They're very expensive.
The whole west coast is. ( ! )
But i don't want to move to Mississippi, Alabama or Ohio either.
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i do think that i would like to move into a high-rise apartment building.
The last two places i lived in had established too close of a relationship with the managers & landlords... so that when it came time to form a personal opinion about me, they're were inclined to evict me...!
But- if the building manager just saw me as another bug under the carpeting on the 7th floor... then maybe i could evade this sort of personal animosity...???
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What i would really like:
Is to become a disembodied robot, and float aimlessly between galaxies.
Forever dozing while the rest of the universe blew itself up, one star at a time.

Rain & Rain...!

Rain & Rain

It's been raining like crazy over here for the past few days...
It looked like it had stopped this morning, but when i got over to my favorite park, it had apparently been raining all night- because the grass was soaking wet...!!!
Plus- with the humidity around here, the grass would NOT dry...!
i waited until 10 O'clock and the dew on the stems wouldn't even dry...!
So i road the C Bus around to the end of the island and back, which brought me back to Kapiolei just in time for the library to open...
This is the only library in the whole Hawaiian library system that lets me use the computer as long as i want -- so long as no-one else wants to use it...
This library has 18 (?) internet computers & most have only 3 or 4...!!! ( ? )
Even the main Branch library in Honolulu only has 8 or so...???
Plus -- : Most of the other branches are sticklers for making sure that you only use a computer for 1 hour a day...! The Waikiki branch & Wahiwa are especially evil in this regard...
The librarians will say things like; 'It's not the top of the hour yet.' When you go use one, even though all the computers are sitting there idle...! or they'll say 'Stand behind your chair until i say you can sit down.' ( !!! )
Somewhere along the lines they got a little mixed up about sharing a limited resource fairly, and restricking its use, which became percieved as a tool of Satan...?
( which is actually pretty accurate... ? )
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i changed the dressing on my knee the other day, and it's coming along pretty well...
All the blackness and redness are gone, although there's still a big patch of raw blue flesh, and there's still the annoying hole in the middle!
i've been using a Q-tip to swab that out, and then use tweezers to pull out any remaining pus-boogers, then filling it with 3 in 1 Antibotic salve.
Usually that works pretty well on these kinds of 'boo-boo's' --
( i've had 3 in the last 2 months alone...! )
-- But this one is a little bigger than the others, plus; it's on my knee, so it's getting flexed around all day...!
it's MUCH BETTER than it was though.
i quit taking all the aspirins and advils that i had been taking for the last several weeks too...!
( After i started taking the Perscription Antibotics, Alot of my other problems disappeared too! )

Friday, November 05, 2004

Please Pay Attention...

If you think that everything is alright; Then you're part of the problem.
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The best place to hide from your enemy is by standing on their face.
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You can make the job of your personal angels alot easier by just keeping busy.
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The trouble with 'seeing things' in clouds, mud puddles & dropped pies; Is that you can only see things that you recognize.
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Crazy people don't make choices.
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Most people don't form opinions; They adopt them.
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i feel guilty whenever i want to be happy.
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Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Trip to The Emergency Ward...!

About a week or two ago, i fell down while attempting to get into some late-night mischief, and skinned up my right knee & palm...! Eeeek!
So i had to applying 3 in 1 Antibacterial Salve to them, and they seemed to be healing pretty well, until, just a week ago, i was in Safeway, looking for some Vitamins, and i knelt down to look at the lower shelves... Because i couldn't find just the kind that i liked so much... and when my knee hit the floor...! Eoooeeeeweh! Mama!
i jumped back up and forgot all about Vitamins...!
So i didn't think about it too much more after that, since it didn't =Continuously= hurt after that...
But then -- a day or two later, it just went completely loopy on me...
It turned all Moogily Woogily...!!!
So after a sleepless night of AGONY...!
( which i don't express lightly, because i have such a high tolerance for pain...
i just recently went to a doctor and had a tooth removed that needed that -- or a root canal, which i couldn't afford...! But that tooth had been bad for like 5 years... and after i got it removed, i was thinking, isn't that odd, that side of my mouth doesn't have that low grade dull pain that i've seemed to have... forever...! )
So when i suggest now, that this knee was ANNOYING ME... Yes! It was painful...
and it LOOKED AWFUL...!!! The Whole knee was BLACK, with a halo of ruby red inflammation around it for about 3 Inches...!!!
So i went to the Emergency Ward at the Honolulu Hospital here... the name of which escapes me at this moment... i never pay attention to things like that...
Anyways... they were VERY NICE and were only interested in treating me, and not ( hardly ) interested in my PAYING FOR IT...!!!
( i had thought that maybe i DID have insurance... that went along with my SSI, but that, i found out, was attached on a state by state bases... and was not a national dealy...???
So anyways... they opened up my knee and squeezed all the pus out, and put a bandage on me and sent me on my way...
That was Saturday... October 30th...
Then on Monday; i went to The Queen Emma Clinic downstairs and had the bandage changed, and the Wick taken out... and THEN they made little bit of a fuss about my insurance not being available in Hawaii, and Made me pay $12...!!!
Actually... i think i could have gotten away with having to pay the $12, since i had to keep bugging them about the bill that had disappeared...
( i hate loose ends...! )
So Wednesday, i changed the dressing myself, and did a much better job ( i think ) than the doctor on Monday... ( they never have just the right size bandages and tape at those places...??? ) so the Redness had gone down substantially... but this is STILL the WORST injury that i've ever had... the blackness has gone down a little so that it's now about 2 by 3 inches and the gaping wound is about 1 by 2 inches, and the hole in the middle goes IN MY KNEE about a half an inch...!!! ugh...!
Fortunately; it doesn't hurt at all anymore...???
It sure looks moogily though!

Thursday, October 28, 2004

Haiku from Hawai'i

Once startling insects
Chinese Flying Cockroaches
Are eaten by Cats.
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Giant Chinese Roaches
& Large pods of Feral Cats
Eat one another.
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Big Sky forms on Sea
Will become Stratomurals
With details of fate--
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Humid all day long
@ Night; Stays warm until three
Then-- May catch your breath.
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Hilo; Now like old--
--Honolulu; Except thatBeach;
Three hours away.
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[ No Beaches ]
Big Island is new
Geologically speaking
Land falls off at sea.
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Sea Turtles hiding
Under their big wet blanket
Wink; When you see them!
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Wash new bloodied socks
Will hang & hang from back pack
But will never dry.
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Crazy people here
Are nearly always locals
Don't come to this place.
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When sleepy: Night waits
The last light holds on & on
People close their doors.
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Much foolish walking
Makes blisters to fill with blood
Then ruin new socks.
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Japanese you'll see
In photoes are chosen ones
Most are quite ugly!
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Airport in Hilo
It is nearly right downtown
Wave to passengers.
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Two thousand & four
Is much too hot & humid
Even for Hawai'i
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Expensive Bus tours
Take Damp Masses far away
To see nothing much.
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Hawai'is stomach
Everything inside of it
Slowly Digested!
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Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Second Posting

i'm still figuring this out, but i have a whole notebook of piddling squiggles to copy over to this forum, as soon as i can get around to it, this stupid library only allows me to use the computers for an hour a day...!!!
Things to come:
12 Experiments that May / or May Not / Change The World
Featuring Inventions, Mad Doctor Experiments & Things you can promote while riding on the bus.
Haiku's
HP48 programs
What's happening to me as a street person in Hawai'i!
Clever insights...


Monday, October 25, 2004

First Post

i'm out of time on the library computer... more later...!

Saturday, December 30, 2000

Odd Biddles / Personal Anecdotes...

This section is for Personal Anecdotes...
Odd Biddles,
Evidence that i've been abducted by Flying Saucers,
Sexual Exploits, Criminal Desires,
Insolent Confessions, Pietistic Apologies...
and so on...
i.e., ( et. al. )

Wednesday, December 20, 2000

Things that i Can't be Recalling Correctly...

Do you have memories that are so quirky that you often wonder...
Did that really happen to me... That way...???
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These are some kooky incidents that i have sinewy memories of---
But are they reliable...???


  1. The Marble Incident...
    Have you ever met anyone that had such a strong sense of Charisma that it was of The Jedi-Knight Order of Mind Control...???
    My 6th Grade Teacher had this Quality.
    His name was Gary Rust.
    There are innumerable examples of how this was manifest throughout the year, most notibly by the continuous occurance of special events that recieved media attention... Attention that was not paid to The other classes, students or teachers that were not under Mr. Rust's tutelage.
    One residual aspect of this Charisma; was that we, The Students, felt that Mr. Rust genuinely respected us as Humanimals, and we, in turn, genuinely respected him.
    This respect was of an order, many upturned recliner sofa's above the usual faux-respect that Ordinary Teachers demand through punishment & intimidation.
    We really liked him; and it would have hurt us deeply if we did anything to betray that trust that we shared for one another...
    So one afternoon; While the preponderance of the class was out at recess ( or somesuch ) there were about a dozen of us remaining behind in the classroom, working on various projects...
    We were all sitting dutifully at our seats, not talking, just as if-- any other teacher were there cruelly supervising us... But there was no teacher there, not even a designated monitor; We were on our own, and behaving ourselves...
    Because we were under the spell of Mr. Rust's ubiquitary guidance.
    Then:

    Another teacher, one that i was unfamiliar with...???...BURST ( Explosively! ) into the room, completely hysterical, Ranting incoheriently about 'A Marble' that had rolled out from under the door of our classroom.
    To this day; i don't believe that there was a marble.
    But she had her way, and lined us all up and cross-hackled us roughly for several minutes, and none of us had any idea what she was yapping about...!!!
    One student; The trouble maker ( of sorts ) admitted that he had rolled the marble out under the door, but simultaneously revealed that he didn't, But was willing to take responsibility for this imaginary fiasco.
    Considering our ages, this was an amazing act.
    Mr. Rust was sent for, and the short of it ( all that i can remember ) was that all the boys were given 'Hacks' ( legal at that time ) while the girls escaped this torture. i beleive that the hacks were administered by Mr. Rust.
    What was this all about? Interclassroom Politics...???
    One thing is for Certain; i lost alot of respect for The Institutions of Public Education
    --and curiouser...
    That was the last year that Mr. Rust taught 'Anywhere'...!
    It was my understanding that he gave up teaching after that and was reassigned to Administrative Duties...???
  2. The Rodney Disowns me...
    When i was living in Bremerton, My n'cle Jack & Auntie Joanie lived in Seattle, about an hour away by ferry and auto... So from time to time, they would invite The Rodney ( my father ) and me over to dinner...
    But they did this in kind of kooky way...
    They would ( according to The Rodney ) invite him; and through him,
    He would invite me...
    So that n'cle Jack & Auntie Joanie would never 'directly' invite me...???
    Would that have been so difficult...???
    So one afternoon when The Rodney called to invite me over to their house for dinner; i balked. i said; "Why don't they just invite me themselves...???"
    And The Rodney went completely ApeShit.
    "What do you want: A Golden Invitation!?" ...and so on.
    So that went on for a few minutes, all the while, i was trying to be very reasonable; suggesting that a simple phone call would do...
    But this was completely out of the question.
    So after he hung up; i thought that i would call his older brother ( Jack is The Rodney's younger brother ) and get 'Phil' to help straighten things out, after all, he was The Patriarch and that's his job... right...???
    Because i didn't have his phone number, i called directory assistance to get it.
    As soon as i mentioned who was calling; He immediately launched into what seemed to be a well rehearsed rant pertaining to every slight, affront, snub, discourtesy and feeble affectation of disrespect that he had ever imagined that i had inflicted upon him...???
    There is essentially two or three comparitively major exploits that may have established a foundation for this missive. One being that i'm a crazy lunatic that has spent the bulk of my adult life as a street person, and the other is that i changed my last name, Which the paternal side of the family found some distain in...???
    The third thing is that i'd been 'freeloading' off The Rodney for several years.
    This last thing was kind of easy; because he's such a 'light touch' and since my parents were divorced when i was around 8 or so, i figured that he 'owed' me a little...??? What exactly... Who the heck knows the answer to something like that-- but with all 'my issues' of being a neglected asperger's child, and so on... ( et. al. )
    ...Plus he's the only person in my family ( until just recently when i moved in with my sister ) that i've ever so egregiously mooched off of...
    That established: This Second Rant by Phil went on for what seemed like 15 minutes at least...??? And all without any indication of any breaths being taken... So that when he finally did start to wind down, i'd had plenty of time to relax and thank him for his valuable input, then i gently hung up.
    i don't think i ever did get a chance to explain what i'd called about...
    i did recall that he believed that n'cle Jack did not have my phone number and i suggested that he use the same technique that i did, to get his; ( Phil's ) Use Directory Assistance.
    One thing about discussing ( arguing ) with someone that is not prone to reasonable dialogue, is that they do not want to engage in reasonable dialogue.
    Any suggestion of reasonable dialogue only further enrages them.
    Which was true in this case.
    So what was going on here?
    Why wouldn't n'cle Jack & Auntie Joanie personally invite me over to dinner?
    Why did The Rodney & Phil find this request so utterly unreasonable?
    What was biting Phil's Ass?
    Why did The Rodney go completely ApeShit and Stay in a state of perpetual ApeShitness for the next 5 years, or so, until some ( Unknown* ) ailment finally killed him...???
    [ *His Death Certificate didn't list a cause of Death...??? ]
    Curiously; i think that after this-- i got along reasonably well with n'cle Jack & Auntie Joanie... But-- They NEVER DID invite me over to dinner.
  3. Being Put Back in The Fifth Grade...
    i have learned comparitively recently that i have an iq of around 130...
    And it is entirely reasonable to think/believe, that i when i was a child, i had an iq of 130, or possibly even higher then...???
    So why was i held back in the 5th Grade...?
    Was i an unruly student, constantly getting in mischief...???
    No; that's not it.
    i was a very polite and well behaved student.
    Unusually polite, Unusually well behaved.
    Was i flunking all my classes...?
    Well; i have a distinct memory that that year, i wanted to get a hamster, and to get the hamster, i had to get at least 3 B's on my report card. i got the hamster, so i must have gotten the 3 B's.
    Does that sound like the academic performance of someone that needs to be held back...???
    One curious thing about it -Then- was that i was completely indifferent to being held back. Perhaps this is a clue. i seem to recall that besides being polite and well behaved, i didn't care about anything.
    i had absolutely no interests in anything, no hobbies, no involvement with sports, no favorite musical bands, no favorite authors.
    Nothing held my attention.
    But i do recall that being put back did confirm something that i was constantly being reminded of, And that was that i was stupid.
    Everyone seemed to agree on this point, and now; i had proof.
    Then; much later;
    in High School, and later; in College, This disconnect between my performance in these other venues, and my internal certitude that i 'Can't' be doing well... Was the source of tremendous confusion...???
  4. Getting Kicked Out of DVR...
    After i got on SSI and was designated as 100% UnEmployable...!!! ...
    [ Slight Digression: My sister works at a place that cares for severely disabled people, many of which are little more than human shaped sock puppets. So despite this, The Agency that oversees these people, insists that they learn 'Life Skills' which may, or maynot, include employment experience...??? But this same government; has decided that i don't have to obtain any such credentials, And am under no obligation whatsoever to find an avocation...??? Pretty Kooky-- Huh...??? i don't make up these rules folks, i just roll with 'em. ]
    ...i moved to Eugene Oregon, and then to Bremerton Washington, where, after living there for 5 plus years, i thought that i really should try to find a job...???
    i had no idea of how to do this; but i think that i was 'inspired' to try this place that i'd passed many times while riding on the bus to Silverdale...
    It was something called DVR; Department of Vocational Rehabilitation.
    That sounded like what i needed; So i wandered in there one day and after a short interview with what amounted to 'The Receptionist'-- She told me to 'Get Lost' and 'Look in the newspaper'.
    Some time after this; i returned and got a more lengthy interview with someone that may have been something more than a receptionist... But as it turned out, the Receptionist may have been the brains of this outfit.
    By some series of circumstances or mechanisms that have been long forgotten, i was sent to a far away Day Care Center for elderly & disabled individuals.
    Kathy -- was trying to get a 'Art Program' started there-- But she didn't have a clue has to how to do this, or anything else, as far as i could tell, and i didn't know what their resources were, or how to get anything like that organized either... All i had to offer, was a bunch of Hand Made Greeting Cards and some other bits of Mail Art, which got me that far.
    So this wasn't going anywhere, and to advance to a 'Real Job' position, i had to somehow 'Qualify' -- and that would take awhile... By more unknowable mechanisms...??? ( That never seemed to involve my participation )
    During this very mysterious transitional phase, i continued to go and do some odd jobs at The Day Care Center-- And i would send postcards to Marge Gardener, my DVR Case Manager... to let her know that i was still interested, Since this transitional phase was taking months...!
    One of these postcards had a letter that was tightly folded up, and affixed to the area normally reserved for succently compressed tidings!
    When The DVR Office got this; Marge was 'Away' ( at a Hospital ) and the clerks that processed it-- THOUGHT IT WAS A BOMB...!!!
    So they called The Bomb Squad, and by means that were never made clear to me, determined that it was not a bomb...
    Nevertheless-- The Head DVR lady called me up, and in a face to face interview, told me about this 'Bomb' and DisEnrolled me from DVR.
    There are just so many layers, and crazy things that i didn't even mention, like the medical evaluations...??? ...that it's really hard to know where to begin in an examination of this...???
    It's just Kooky.
  5. The Entire Ninth Grade...
    After my parents were divorced and we moved to Spokane, Washington, i attended The Longfellow Elementary School... ( Since torn down, and replaced with a Gawd Awful looking piece of Crappity Crap -- 'Modern' Architecture ... anyways... )
    ...from the 4th to the 8th grades. i plodded along, never giving much thought to anything.
    When i was to advance to the 9th grade, they had just finished a new Jr. High School; Garry Jr. High, which was for 7th, 8th & 9th graders. So i went there for the 9th grade.
    Clearly, i think, this was a transitional phase for me, but more than that--
    Several really odd things happened.
    i met Steve Stamotopolus (?) A definitive 'Bart Simpson' type that wasn't a hard core criminal, but merely a dedicated mischievious imp, that smoked pot and was forever getting into imponderous situations that never seemed to blow out of control. In his company; no police were ever called, no serious injuries occurred, no buildings were ever burnt to the ground-- but there was a constant grandeur of percieved delinquency...
    He was also the first person, that i truly respected, that enjoyed spending a free afternoon aimlessly browsing through a library, to find interesting books.
    He taught me that being smart was 'OK'!
    But despite this new epiphany; i completely failed Algebra, and Never did any work in any of my classes that i can recall.
    By all reasonable accounts, i should have flunked every one of my classes-- But i didn't.
    Plus;
    No one seemed to notice that i wasn't doing a bit of homework or turning in any assignments...???
    How could this be...???
    The most egregious of these failures was Chemistry, which i distinctly, VERY Distinctly, recall having NEVER read anything in The Text Book or Doing any of the Assignments, i don't recall learning ANYTHING about Chemistry...!!!
    And yet-- i passed that class as well.
    The entire 9th grade was a large musty closet with nothing in it, yet somehow, a pair of socks were found in it, at the end of the year, to let me get into highschool.
    Another very curious thing--
    Was that One of The History, or Social Studies, teachers was affiliated with The American Institute of Foreign Studies, Essentially a Travel Agency that allows young people to visit Europe and such...
    The year i was there, she handed out 'Ditto's' for people interested in this, and of course, i just threw mine away...
    Then a year or so later, she wrote my mother asking if maybe i would be interested in going to Europe that next Summer...???
    The Net Effect of this was that she has 'Picked' me...???
    Which seems VERY unlikely...
    What is more reasonable; is that she was fishing for students, because she wanted to visit Europe and she needed some fodder to pay her way...???
    As it turned out, i got my dad to fork over $2000 and i went with several other students, all of which were less than sterling examples of academic pursuance...
    But i had a lot of fun anyway...
  6. Money When i was A Street Person...
    For the longest time; about 7+ years that i was a street person, before i finally got on SSI, i would often have money to buy Hot Cocoas with, or Coffees and Rolls @ McDonal'and with, but i can't seem to recall how i was coming by this income...???
    i seem to recall occasionally turning in Cans in Oregon, and there was this one Extremely Anomalous phone booth in Pacific Grove, California that i would pass by nearly every morning, and it would 'Often' ( many more times than once... ) would be literally full of quarters in the coin return bin...???
    But i would much more frequently have plenty of money for laundry, and journals and other completely unnecessary biddles...???
  7. Sleeping in Corvallis Oregon...
    Just about every place i've ever been, i have a pretty clear memory of what i used to do when just hanging around there, and where i slept at night and so on...
    But i recently revisited Corvallis Oregon, when i distinctly remember having spent several months there, and even watching the MiniSeries 'Shogun' (???) at the TV room at their Student Union Building...
    But i have Absolutely NO RECOLLECTION of where i slept there at night...
    Which is Very Unusual for me...???
  8. Other Things that i just Don't Understand...
    Dispite many years of trying to figure them out...???
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  9. Getting Kicked Off The Assisted Housing List in Bremerton Washington...
    After i'd been living in Bremerton Washington for about 5 years ( + ) i decided to see if i could move into an Assisted Living Apartment ( ??? ) which are Amazingly Inexpensive, like $5 a month...!!!
    So i signed up for both The Kitsap County List and The Bremerton List--
    And i think that there may have been some 'Complicated' Things that i was supposed to do, to make this work, that i didn't do...
    Like contact the Individual Apartment Buildings or some such... Partly because i was initially #400 on both lists, and i thought that i'd wait until i got to the top 20 or so before i put more effort into it...
    And both lists where supposed to be like Six Month Waiting Lists and i was on The Kitsap County List for more than 10 years...!!!
    But prior to that, i got kicked off The Bremerton List because at some point, they sent me a 'Are you still Interested in This' Do-dad ( Questionaire ) and amoung the questions was: Have you even been convicted of Child Molestation? or something like that... and i wrote in; along the margin, since it was a Yes/No Question, and provided only boxes for an Answer; "No, but i am a compulsive masturbator."
    So they kicked me off their list...
    But i thought that that was kind of Kooky, so i tried for a few weeks to find their 'Office' and was completely Unable to do so...!!!
    They apparently existed as a Mail In Service only...
    It also strikes me; That this Housing Solutions Service ( ? ) was specifically for Disabled and Crazy people, so that i again demonstrated that i was Too Crazy for An Agency Specifically Designed to Accomodate Crazy People...???
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Thursday, November 30, 2000

Book Reports... ( et. al. )

This Area is principly for Book Reports ( et. al. )
But it may contain Other kinds of Reports;
For Movies or Films ( Note- Distinction where Appropriate )
or possibly even Music CD's or Celebrity Personae's...???